If pressed to select a single figure to
represent the very essence of the metal underground, one would be
incredibly foolish not to immediately grant the title to Paul
Speckmann. Speckmann is, for all intents and purposes, the unsung
godfather of death metal: a figure exalted to the highest level of
genius by a tragically narrow few and condemned to obscurity by most
in the shadow of less-deserving figures like Chuck Schuldiner.
Speckmann, however, gives precisely zero fucks about the travesty
that is his obscurity, as evidenced by his words of indifference
regarding the greater success of other early death metal bands such
as Death or Possessed. He's in it purely for the music and has been
incessantly toiling in the underground for nearly three decades. He's
metal all the way down; and the fact of the matter is that his
contributions to the genre are of insurmountable importance due in no
small part to his succinct, acerbic treatments of grand subjects
that, in a fashion very similar to masters (pun intended) of the
aphorism like Nietzsche or Shakespeare, express 20 pages of discourse
in a phrase or two. Perhaps the most brilliant of his offerings of
this sort comes in the form of "Pay to Die".
The song itself is a testament to the
immense musical and philosophical potency of this genre. In seven
words, Speckmann delivers a multi-faceted message of vitriol when he
summarizes the absurdity of modern life with the profoundly simple
proclamation: "pay to be born; pay to die". In his own
words, from an interview with Jeff Tandy, Speckmann recounts the
origin of the song:
"The
song was about my father. He was always giving me hell and dragging
me to church, and I was arguing with him over the years. Then he got
sick and died, and obviously we had to pay to bury him, you know –
“pay to die”! The words in the song speak for themselves – you
pay to be born, you pay to die. It was real life for me at that time,
and it hit really hard."
Jeff
replies that the song itself seems to sum up American (read: modern)
life, a suggestion to which Paul agrees. It is precisely this concise
summary of life that makes it universally appealing. By and large, we
live in a world dictated by monetary and utility values. Bouts with
impassioned existential anxiety and theorizing on matters of
abstraction, that is, activities that comprise the very essence of
what it should
mean
to live a human life, are roadblocks in the modern zeitgeist that
"Pay to Die" describes in which life is catalyzed, fueled,
and eventually ended by petty material means. The venomous seven-word
mantra simultaneously functions as a clarion call to action and a more
general lamentation of the dreadful state of affairs in the modern
world: a dual-edged blade that makes the song as viscerally moving as
any piece of music I can think of.
In
observing the development of the song itself from its various
incarnations in Death Strike, Master, and eventually Speckmann
Project, one can very nearly construct a well-informed history of
death metal as a style unto its own. The song's debut on Death
Strike's Fuckin'
Death,
released in January 1985, is best viewed as a microcosm of the
formative years of extreme metal when the amorphous styles death
metal, black metal, grindcore, and the like were simply a hazy
amalgamation of similar influences from both metal and punk such as
Venom, Slayer, and Discharge. Speckmann himself even notes that
during the early years of Master/Death Strike, the term "death
metal" wasn't in popular usage: they simply played "metal".
An important feature to note of the earliest incarnation of "Pay
to Die" is the eminent importance that the punk tendencies of
Discharge play in driving the song. The drum beat is one of complete
uniformity, and Speckmann's destructive vocals pay little heed to the
inherent rhythm of the song as much as they do exist as an
exclusively separate element of the song in their own right.
Move
to the version we find on Master's self-titled 1990 album. There are
a number of new things brought to the table with this performance of
the song, each of which can be traced back to a predominantly greater
"metal" orientation than the one found on Fuckin'
Death or
Master's 1985 rehearsal tape. The song begins with a percussive
series of ascending and descending power-chord tones before bursting
into the song's main "melodic" line at a slightly more
fluid and urgent tempo. The subtle introduction of the second
bass-drum in the verse, as well as the inclusion of abrupt fills
indicate a movement away from the strict uniformity that defines
earlier versions of the song. This movement away from the nascent
form of death metal that the 1985 version epitomizes reaches its pinnacle in
the version found on the 1992 Speckmann Project album, where the song
is filtered through 7 years of fervent stylistic progression by means
of the aforementioned movement away from structural and percussive
uniformity. Simply put, the song is not only colossal on a
philosophical level; it is also a standing monument to death metal as
a whole.
The
last nuance of the song I'd like to touch upon is the line bellowed
at the end of the versions found on Master's self-titled album and
the Speckmann Project album wherein Speckmann delivers the
impassioned declaration: "pay to die, you sick motherfuckers".
In this we find yet another dual meaning that only adds to the legacy
of this masterpiece. Quite literally, we can take the term sick in a
medical sense, with the line functioning as a juxtaposition of the
loss of something as intangible as life with the utterly tangible
notion of the modern world's fixation on material ends. The other
interpretation logically follows where we may also take the term
"sick" to indicate a moribund psychological state; as if
Speckmann is diagnosing anyone that falls under the umbrella of
defective mind-states the song describes.
(note: the last video is actually of the version found on the Speckmann Project album).